Lay It Down

I've been lookin' till my eyes are tired of lookin'
Listenin' till my ears are numb from listenin'
Prayin' till my knees are sore from kneelin' on the bedroom floor
I know that you know that my heart is achin'
I'm running out of tears and my will is breakin'
I don't think that I can carry the burden of it anymore
All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans,
Are slowly slippin' through my folded hands

Chorus:
So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do
Everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don't come back up
I know Your love would be enough
I'm gonna let it be, I'm gonna let it go,
I'm gonna lay it down

I've been walkin' through this world like I'm barely livin'
Buried in the doubt of this hole I've been diggin'
But You're pullin' me out
I'm finally breathin' in the open air
This room may be dark but I'm finally seein'
There's a new ray of hope, and now I'm believin'
That the past is past, and the future's beginning to look brighter now
Oh, cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands

"Lay It Down"

by Jaci Velasquez

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Christian recording artist, Jaci Velasquez, found herself literally "kneeling on her bedroom floor", reeling from a painful divorce that ended her almost two-year "dream" marriage.

Add to that the pressure of living up to her prominent Christian artist status, besides being an outspoken True Love Waits advocate - all of which would now find itself caught in the same sentence with the adjective "divorced".

"...The painful truth is that our marriage didn't work out. I've had such a difficult time with this. My heart hurt so badly that I felt like I wanted to crawl under a rock and just die. I can't say that I have ever felt such pain before. My heart literally felt like it was breaking in half," Velasquez confessed.

Though all of Christendom (and perhaps herself) seemed to be against her, that would not be the end of Velasquez.

"Lay It Down" became a life anthem for the Latin American vocal powerhouse. She belts out the second chorus in an unrestrained shout to her God above, revealing a weathered rasp in her voice - and in my opinion - an even weathered soul.

Velasquez is now a happily remarried 32-year-old mother since the song's release in 2005.

When I first heard it all those years back, I knew I had to keep it close to my heart, because I knew some day, like today, I would need it.